Regret?

Having a presentation this morning,
so i'm going to college a little bit late because it start at 12pm.

but i reached the train station a bit early because i thought of something,
will i meet her again?
the one who is in my arms before...

still, i am listening to the song "two is better than one",
repeat and repeat...
and the memories back then keep recall and recall...

Suddenly i'm thinking,
is it good for me to get her back?
is it the best choice for me to do so?
I felt a bit of sour and regret,
i regret because my pride has made me blind...

thinking of how happy she is,
thinking of how satisfy she is,
one of my friend told me:

"you don't expect anything from her, because she is trying the best to do the best for you. Our expectation level are not the same, so please don't hope or expect anything from your other half."

after all this time,
i finally get what is he trying to say,
because i am in the situation where i need to thought of it.

after a small struggle in myself,
my answer for myself is a no.
reasons? heh...
i am not suitable to have a partner for the rest of my life...
because most of my time are used for working.

the main problem is me,
i suck to be a boyfriend,
i suck at taking care of the others...
well...
Mr. Pride, i am going to take you as my partner from now on,
because i am forced to...

Competing with the others,
challenging the others,
keep improving,
is endless...

Two is better than one?

I just downloaded this song "Two better than one" this morning,
because i heard it early in the morning when i woke up.

I fell in love with this song at the first moment i heard it,
i was listening to this song the whole day.

so maybe is true, that i cant live without you,
and maybe two is better than one,
but there's so much time, to figure out the rest in my life,
and you've already caught me undone,
and i'm thinking two is better than one.

This is the part where is like the most...

After listen to this song over and over,
i felt something is missing,
someone is missing...
or i just need someone to care more about me...
some one that i like, some one that i accept...

How sad is to walk alone,
how melancholy is to eat alone,
and how sad is to enjoy the successful moment alone...

I am thinking two is better than one...

Are you willing to be my partner for the rest of my life??

to walk with me,
to dine with me,
to share every successful moment i have?

Are you willing to? =(

Nothing much

Can't remind when is the last time i felt the excitement,

can't recall when is the last time my heart pump violently,

can't remember when is the last time i tried to do something special for someone special.

I can't remind, i can't recall and i cant remember...

I forgot how to be excited,

i don't know what can cause my heart pump violently,

and i wouldn't know when will be the time for me to do something special again...

Perhaps everything is just around me,

just that i did't realize...

or i just predicted all and lost everything?

Does the quote "Something are better to be left unknown" mean it?

I had an answer for myself...

true... something are better left unknown...

I've been practicing to predict everything,

but now it brings me sorrow,

nothing can really excite me nor making me feel new...

but there is one thing which i can do to save myself...

one thing which i know is hard for me to make it done...

the one thing can change my style of life...

release me from the land of sorrow...